Float Tanks: Holding My Tone Of Being Inside The Center Of The Cyclone.
What Am I Floating For?
I have been using float tanks for over four years now. When I first started using them my intention was to find a way to navigate out of body and otherworldly experiences without the use of drugs. I quickly found that it was very difficult for me to have those experiences however, I found something unexpected inside the float tank; unadulterated peace. As someone with chronic anxiety I had grown accustom to the sensation of my adrenals constantly dumping adrenaline. When i first got into a float tank I had completely forgotten what it was like to be totally relaxed. As I started to use the float tank more and more I began to notice periods of my life outside the tank where my adrenals finally stopped dumping. The sensation was so relaxing that it felt almost unsafe. There was an underlying sense that something could come and take my peace away from me at any moment so I had to be on guard to protect against that something. This “too good to be true” belief system continued to hijack me for sometime into my exploration of floating.
Hold On Stay Inside This Body, This Body Holding Me…
Recently I’ve been doing a lot of work on myself outside of the tank and one of the tools I’ve developed is being able to hold an even tone of being in the face of fear, chaos, paranoia, and also safety, predictability and satisfaction. In many ways chaos and satisfaction can seem equally unsafe to the mind. What my practice in the float tank has been is to feel the sensations in my body and accept them completely, without judging them or at least without judging my judgments. My tendency is to numb out my sensations in the face of discomfort. I’m beginning to find that my fear of my sensations is holding me back from deeper peace and deeper bliss. Instead of using the float tank as a way to escape my body I’m now using it as a way to have immense intimacy with my body. Floating helps me to listen to my body and feel my sensations without judging them. As I practice this more and more I begin to notice that my life looks more and more like the life I’ve always dreamed of. There are a lot of teachings out there that made me think enlightenment was all about “achieving nirvana” and having out of body communications with “The Gods”. The more I follow what resonates for me the more I begin to see that “enlightenment” is really all about embracing my body and the human experience. This is why I think it’s so important to be able to let go of expectation and come at every float with a “beginner’s mind”. When i first started floating I thought I was trying to leave my body and now I see that I’m trying to be fully in my body! There is no greater tool for embodiment than the float tank. If you’re looking for more peace, more bliss, more alignment with your life’s purpose, less pain and greater communication with your body then I highly recommend you hop in a float tank today and see what all the buzz is about!